Tell me of Your True

My son had no clue. Knowing him as well as I do...I had every stone turned as to not give away the secret of his party last night. We headed out to get some dinner...to which I even complained I didn't care for the place. Added to the "throw off". We got there and all his friends and parents and teachers were hiding in the coffee shop next door. As he stood in the long line to make his order, I prompted him out of line to come into the coffee shop. I had mentioned all evening I was craving a latte. With a teenager's disgusts, he minded his mom and came into the shop where he was greeted with the yells of "Happy Birthday and Surprise!" Even the staff yelled for him! I got pictures of his face and they are priceless. I was also pleased at the teachers' comments that it was an honor to be here for his special day. That made my heart proud and my tears swallow in my throat. We took pictures of a cake that said Happy Birthday You Sexy Thang! Too funny. I gave him the Ipod he has begged for and he got gift certificates and is ready to spend! We all agreed his mean behavior this week owed us an "I'm sorry" on your knees song and he complied. It was so cute and funny and he is good at entertaining me as well as his friends. So, that's the way it went and was feeling a big "wheewww" as his attitude will now be better knowing I and his friends didn't put himoff for his birthday! Makes me Smile!

This week, which started on this past Saturday. That was a great day! My Uncle had a house warming party and tons were there. We had food and drink and games and my special someone even showed up. His stay was an angel's visit, but breathless each time we meet. I stayed over at my Uncle's and rose early to go see my "love". I have written about him many times recently. I call him my lier, uh I mean,lawyer. Sunday, we spent time together and like a light went off in my soul, I knew, just knew, he will never love me the way I want or the way I have loved him. So, I closed the door and upon his request, left a small window cracked. He didn't fight for me as I had prayed for. So, my decisions were on target. I know he isnt dead, yet, I grieve like such. This whole week has been a blurr to me. I desperately tried to make contact as he never called like he said he would. I spoke finally with him briefly on Wednesday, as he told me his son left his wife and came back home. I was certian his plate was too full for me and no crumbs were left. I am deserving of more than crumbs I tell myself anyway, yet I hurt from my head to my toes longing for the dream of his fight to want me. His words and actions have always been in conflict. The sweet as opposed to the bitter now is that my son will be 17 on Monday the 27th and I have turned the tables on him. His friends and a few fellow teachers will be surprising him tomorrow night at his favorite "sub" shop. He was so upset yesterday at his friends as they all had "plans" this weekend and could not get together with him. I took the brunt of his hurt and it was all I could do not to give it away to ease his pain. I am a sucker for not letting anyone feel pain...God knows I feel enough for myself and others shouldn't...In my mind. His school is going well as he is busy being the editor of the paper and his computer talents for the staff and pending college visits. I am blessed through the sucsess of my son. My heart will heal in time and I will have better poetry while in pain, ironic how that seems to be. You all have a great weekend and I will update you on his party and my bitterdweet love life or lack there of. Smiles as Always, Terri

Hello Everyone! This is our tenth day in triple digits. It's sooo HOT....OK, I wont go there, yet, the humidity is unbarable! To catch you up on my comings and goings...I went to out capital city to a semi-pro baseball game. I saw the "Bisuits" and yes, the mascot is a bisquit with a tongue that looks like a pad of butter. This was too funny. We, my great looking date,sat between home and 1st base. I almost got a foul ball. I think if I should go again, I will take a mitt. The heat was just as bad as the team they played. I wont tell who as not to offend anyone. I overheard a lady tell her friend she was perspiring and the other told her she wasnt' perspiring, she was glissoning...pardon me ladies...I was sweating!!! By the time the evening was over I was soaked to the skin. Had so much fun though. Good company, good ballpark food, good drinks and water and to watch a real semi pro ballgame was worth it all! Have a great weekend all and as always...Smiles!

I hardly believe that the lazy days of summer are winding down. School begins for my son this week. He is a senior this year and when I think about that, it's a bittersweet thought. He will graduate, to which it means senior portraits, cap and gowns, college applications, scholarships. Seems only yesterday, he was asking to play in a bath with his "hotwheel" cars or begging for me to take him to the playground to swing. Part of me wants to cry and the rest rejoices at the wonderful achievments in his life thus far. Of course we are just starting out this year and what new and wonderful adventures are in store. He is feeling much better and his blood pressure is better...at times. We are still working on this issue. My aunt passed away this week and seems everytime I put away my "funeral suit" as I call it, I have to pull it back out again. I thank you all for the comments on my poems and will have more coming as life goes on. Have a blessed week everyone as I hussle and bussle to accomplish the tasks before me, well, us, my son and me. Smiles, Terri Baumann

I ave been in bed with the sinus and congestion that shouldn't come in the middle of summer. Besides the 98 degrees outside and our humidity, the fever feel awful. I have been on medicines for 4 days now and feeling much better, so by Sunday, I will catch up on chores that only mom can do. My son is doing good and I thank all who have been commenting and asking. He will see a specialist next week and they will help us figure this out. He starts back his senior year next week and is so excited to go. He has become a great young man.

AHHHHH! What a most peaceful weekend. I went to visit my Uncle at his new home on the "creek" in the country. He retired as of April and has made his new home in a quaint town that has a great view of the creek from his back deck and a view of horses, doats, chicken {hens?}and the American Flag on the front deck. I say creek because he has the creek that feeds right to the big lake and can be seen from his home. This "creek is at it's widest point maybe 15 feet across and yet you can catch the best size bass, brim, and crappie. It has beautiful wildflowers growing all along it's banks and running into the middle of the creek itself. I got some great pictures of the yellow flowers and will use them as my pc's wallpaper most likely. We grilled out on Sunday as I watched the painted horses roll around on the ground for cooling off. I actually caught myself giggling out loud. I took a picture that to me represents pure American values. The picture on the left of it's view is the steel pole with the American flag waving proudly as the right side of the picture is backgrounded with a big red barn and 4 horses grazing and some small hens waddling across the scene of the lush green grass despite the draught. To my soul, I cannot describe it as the feelings it gives me to my memory. I love my Uncle and he is very special to me even more as he took the father figure role when my dad passed on. Just a quick updat on my son...He will be seeing a great doctor next week and he has made his own consious decisions to modify his lifestyle to be in control of his own life. He makes me proud and an example for others. You all have a great week and as usual.. Smiles, Terri

Thank you to all who have commented or prayed for my son and myself as we deal with his blood pressure issues. His blood work came back normal and we have been taking his BP regularly the past week to see where it is at different times. Sometimes it is up and sometimes it is down. We will be seeing a specialist that works only with kids his age and this issue. She made him feel good right off the bat by telling him the primary DR who gave him such grief over his weight was wrong. Weight is only a small part of a bigger picture that this DR is willing to find out. So, continue your prayers and I will keep you posted.
Also, a new poem is on my profile...yep, its the "one" again.

Hello Smiles Everyone! My son is keeping a check on the BP and it is lower, yet, not in the safe range. We will be seeing a specialist for his age next week. I will keep you posted, no pun intended. So, It is Friday the 13th. Many all over feel this is an unlucky day. I do not know the histiry of it and plan to research it when I can. I do know, I think any Friday the 13th is awesome. Reminds me of my dad, now deceased, was born on a Friday the 13th! So, to me that is the luckiest day ever. Also, I am heading out to see the love of my life for the whole weekend, thats more than lucky, thats my gift from God. So, when you avoid your daily activities or step around the ladder or run from the black cat...Think of how this day could be the best day of your life and embrace whatever God has to give you on this the Friday the 13th!!! Smiles, Terri

Wednesday was a scarey day for my son and myself. The day started as the usual of my coffee being extremely good this morning and all is well with my corner of the world. My son is still training the new puppy {now 6months} and he comes in the house frantic from a nose bleed. This was the second one this week. The night before, he had complained of a headache and on several occasions, he has mentioned dizzy spells. Being a paramedic and nurse, I usually dismiss the urgency. Not from lack of care, just the fact I see so much more that when a simple spot of blood and a slight headache with light dizziness from a 16ur old who has sinus issues comes to complain, I do the usual,"It's OK, just get a rag, it will be fine, etc..
Then I began to use my skills and started to put all these events in the "evaluate" mode. As my skills pondered the symptoms, I made a decision to just check his blood pressure. Mainly because his sinuses have not been as severe as they can be and never before has he had the dizziness or the nosebleeds. His blood pressure was through the roof! On the outside, I covered the fear that crept on the inside. I calmly told him I thought perhaps we should go get some sinus xrays and maybe let the doctor check his blood pressure with a larger cuff. My son knows me well! He knows if I want to go get him checked out, then there was more to it than simple sinuses. He is terrified of needles and so his heart racing, he obediently got in the car and we headed to the doctor. His pressure was still up, yet not as much as when I took it, but enough to warrent more investigations. The fear of needles didnt help as the lab girl missed his veins and caused a bruise. So, them knowing me, I stuck him in the other arm and got the needed source for the tests ordered. They took films of his big head and ruled out sinuses. They sent the samples out to check for Thyroid problems and we will get those back next week. In the meantime, we are sure the dizziness, headaches and Blood pressure elevated are our instant problems to work on.Even after the fact he has lost 30 pounds since our diet, he got the lecture all doctors love to give to overweight teenagers. We are going to keep a watch on his blood pressure for the next 7 days and see how it goes up or down as well as listing what he was doing as we took it. Then see if he needs to be put on any medications, to which will come from a specialist for his age. So we wait for results of other tests and do as we should this week and down on my knees we pray and turn it over to the most high. I will assuredly keep you all posted. Say a prayer for him as you read this. Until next post..Smiles

Sorry everyone! Forgot to title the last blog. It is Monday ya know!!! So Call it Weekend Roundup. You name it. This blob here is OOPS, Did it again! Someone ought to make a song called that...LOL, they did. But don't go shaving your heads over it.