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Silent Truce by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

8/31/2008

Silence is the loudest form of spech
And no matter how far out to you I may reach
The distance between us seems greater
And the brick wall mounted seperating us mounted much higher
Than the amount of affection you have left for me
Whatever may have happened to how we used to be
Dissolved into a darkness so impenetratable
You rid me of my talents and all I am capable
Thus I bid you farewell with a bitter silence
Never daring to break this vengeful truce

Through by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

8/31/2008

As upfront and rushed this decision may be
I'm trhough with writing poems about you and me
These countless ballads recount our love
That once seemsed as magical as the white wings of a dove
But now reflect a pain to hard to mend, anger built up over time and broken dreams
All my hopes shattered and my belief in love altered by all means
So here goes to finally letting go
Even though I should have long ago
Yet never really had the courage
Until ma heart admitted its rage
With the remainders of dried tears
And a hurt that lurked for many years
Goodbye to all that held me back
Strenght is no more what I lack

Through by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

8/31/2008

Free by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

7/14/2008

Someday, I dream of being free
Letting my hair down
And just allowing myself to be
Without a care in the world
I shall not frown
I will in flower fields that seem endless
Just living liviing the life I destined to live
Oblivious to pain, hurt and distress
Forget my past foes I shal not but I shall forgive
But this is only a dream, as I'd said
Although it seems so real to me
This illusion brewing in my head
But someday, I will be bree

Survival by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

7/12/2007

I am not blood to pump into your heart
So i cannot make your heart beat
I am not strenght to fill in your bones
Therefore i cannot make you stronger
I am not faith to compose your spirit of
And so i cannot mend religious bonds
I am not endurance to filter into your soul
So i cannot make you live
I am not air to push into your lungs
Therefore i cannot make you breath
But my love can make your heart beat
Strenghten allyour week and weary bones
Boost your dedication and leave you without doubt
Prolong your life duration
Fill your lungs with more air that required
I am but a mere mortal being
Who is capable of loving another

THE UNPSOKEN WILL OF THE UNHEARD by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

6/3/2007

At first she thought she had found the legendary happiness
Assuming she felt joy in her heart and her past solitude dispelled
Although deep in her heart anxiety began to rise
But she quieted it down with ignorance
What seemed like days turned to decades
And time had struck with a permanent change
So her most prized possession, she had sold with no refunds
She fell into a dark and deep hole of deception and turmoil
Hiding her worries in spite of him
But an anxious heart never goes to rest
As she suffered from many sleepless nights
Tossing and turning with deep regrets
Beads of sweat displayed her distress
She was in denial yet now she faces the truth
She no more longed for happiness and what she thought it was
Or dreamed of nights where she no more basked in her isolation
As she gazed down at her swollen belly
She silently pleads within her bleeding heart
This time, tell me the truth
And not your modified version of it

Promise by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

6/3/2007

I will promise you the truth
And promise to dismiss all lies
I will promise you loyalty
And promise to be faithful
I will promise you my smile
And to save it all for you
I will promise you my love
And possibly a bit of my heart
I will promise you my touch
And never break this ode
I will promise you company
And promise you’ll never be lonely
I will promise you happiness
And not to share my misery with you
But why didn’t you tell me some one else
Had already made those promises to you?

Inner Beauty by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

6/3/2007

Life is a mystery in its own definition
Bringing joyous moments of happiness and laughs
Then sudden actions can impact you greatly
And break depression to you, beginning a chapter of turbulence
I moved to and for to find somewhere to call home
I looked left and right to define where I might be safe
Taking caution of where I put my head to lay
All around me I was doubted and suspected
Not only did they judge but reject me
Left in the wilderness filled with many dangers
Prone to be attacked by loneliness and misery
And so I sought refuge in poetry
Embracing the sweet comfort of its words
Spilling onto the page like the tears of guilt from my eyes
My heart profusely bleeding out the words
My mind falling apart as I try to reclaim my sanity
Ever feeling, emotion and desire within my heart
Had long gone as I had emptied the contents
Transformed a tragedy into something it could have never been
And with my last breath, I acknowledged its beauty

Fairytale Ending by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

6/3/2007

She walks around with her head facing down
Avoiding eye contact as people form a questioning frown
She looks around for a safe shelter
But her heart convinces her nothing yet is better
Tomorrow will be just as worse as today
With worse taunts, gestures and meaner things to say
Her heart empty and her esteem low
She seeks for her “Narnia” that she can go
Where no worries and bad thoughts lurk within
That she can find the fictitious happiness in
But longing for the impossible may be portrayed as a sin
As she gazes at the rising sun and waits for today to begin
Her heart beats with a tinge of hope
But then deception cuts off this ambitious rope
She lives in denial not accepting the truth
Questioning why she posses no beauty of youth
She looks around with an envious glare
But quickly refrains as this is too much to bare
Desperately yet patiently gazing gout her window
It’s a pity she is filled with remorse like so
She awaits her prince in shining amour
Wishing only he can tame her like a snake charmer
Tame the burning yet ice cold misery she posses
And hoping he will be all that she searches
She tries to convince us that she’s “fine”
As she accepted “happiness isn’t a possession of mine”
She wants the sweet presence of company
And someone to dispel all the days she felt lonely
She walks around with her head facing down
With so many dreams in them she could drown
She seeks refuge in the arms of deception
Hoping it will solve her every complication
And yet here she stands feeling alone
As she has no one to call her own
Betrayed, hurt, isolated yet yearning
Leila awaits her fairytale ending

His Absence by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

6/3/2007

He was hugging me
But I wasn’t in his arms
He was touching me
But I wasn’t within his reach
He whispered sweet nothings into my ear
But I was deaf to his loving words
He was kissing me
But our lips never parted neither did they touch
He looked me in the eye
But I started back at thin air
He cuddled me as I leaned against him
But I fell over due to an absence
He said he loved me
But I was immune to such affection
He was sitting here next to me
But he was only a ghost of time

Foolishness by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

6/3/2007

I tried to cheat death
Since I thought I was smarter
And knew better than to let it win me over
I tired to cheat death
Since I wasn’t yet ready
And my time couldn’t possibly be now
I tried to cheat death
Since I felt stronger
And escaped from every threatening situation
I tried to cheat death
Since I feared nothing
And I refrained from all actions
I tried to cheat death
Since I felt it quite unnecessary
And doubted its existence at all
I tired to cheat death
Since I though it quite gullible
And cooked up a malicious trick
I tired to cheat death
Since I didn’t know better
And it sneakily took my last breath away

End by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

6/3/2007

Anxiety lay in my stomach
Causing me to stir with pain
But this indigestible thing
Was a mere beginning to the worst
An appetizer to my main course of distress
A prelude to my tale of anguish
An introduction to my road of destruction
Misery filled my tear ducts
Causing me to cringe
But this inescapable feeling
Was the link to tears
Crying over milk spilt long ago
Shedding tears of loneliness and hope
Breaking down in the dark all alone
Hatred filled my heart
Causing me to jolt in surprise
But these awakening shakes
Was a mere start to the worst
My heart aching with such longing
Struggling to beat every second after the other
Opening out to show emotion in the worst of times
Regret and Remorse filled my lungs
Causing me to gasp for air
But this scent did remain within me
Making it harder to breathe
My breaths limited to hopeful gaps
Until my chest heaved one last breath
And that was it

Me by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

6/3/2007

I was a fool crying over spilt milk
Who am I?
I am a fake lost in the real world
Who am I?
I am an immature playing with fire
Who am I?
I am a “loser” claiming victory
Who am I?
I am a patient denying my asylum residence
Who am I?
I am a wilting rose among growing flower buds
Who am I?
I am a withered and waned dress that has seen better days
Who am I?
I am me…..

Shunned by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

6/3/2007

Misery taunted me
Betrayal taunted me
Guilt flattered me
Anger cheered me on
Loyalty praised me
Comfort betrayed me
Annoyance and irritancy provoked me
Love mocked me
Admiration ignored me
Intelligence scolded me
Loneliness befriended me
And yet happiness avoided me

Impossibility by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

6/3/2007

For all I do and put forward in favor for people
I am suspected that my trust may disappear like a water ripple
For all I say and utter under my breath with caution
I am rejected and excluded to the company of isolation
For all I feel and the emotions overflowing in my heart
I am mocked and judged right from the very start
For all I try do fix and patch up without the help of tourniquets
I am doubted for my past of mistakes and wrong decisions like crime suspects
For all i endure and try to succeed at in order to please others
I am insulted for my kindness and cursed with sharp tongues
For all I say, feel, want, think and need
I am afool for ever believing in long found contentment

Dark Consumption by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

6/3/2007

All her life she had awaited her moment of recognition
Her heart lacked sin
And her mind lacked malicious thoughts
“The Good Samaritan” could tell her tale
But it lacked all the pain and suffering she endured
Till her endurance and tolerance level dropped
But she continued on with hopefulness
Treading on broken glass
Clasping thorns
And drinking poison
Yet she did it all with a pure heart
She was moving towards the light
Her heart heavy with hope and relief
She could hear trumpets and the sound of angels singing
She prepared herself for eternal comfort
And put behind all the pain
She released her past and refused to accept she had ever been there
She was near the opening and was anxious with content
All of a sudden, it all went
Pitch
BLACK

Fears by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

6/3/2007

My childish fear still linger
Haunting me wherever I go
They await my arrival
To give me such a scare
Not wanting to move on
Despite my growth in age
And the changes surrounding me
But they will always remain
As I’m still afraid of the boogey man

FAIRYTALE ENDING by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

6/3/2007

She walks around with her head facing down
Avoiding eye contact as people form a questioning frown
She looks around for a safe shelter
But her heart convinces her nothing yet is better
Tomorrow will be just as worse as today
With worse taunts, gestures and meaner things to say
Her heart empty and her esteem low
She seeks for her “Neverland” that she can go
Where no worries and bad thoughts lurk within
That she can find the fictitious happiness in
But longing for the impossible may be portrayed as a sin
As she gazes at the rising sun and waits for today to begin
Her heart beats with a tinge of hope
But then deception cuts off this ambitious rope
She lives in denial not accepting the truth
Questioning why she posses no beauty of youth
She looks around with an envious glare
But quickly refrains as this is too much to bare
Desperately yet patiently gazing gout her window
It’s a pity she is filled with remorse like so
She awaits her prince in shining amour
Wishing only he can tame her like a snake charmer
Tame the burning yet ice cold misery she posses
And hoping he will be all that she searches
She tries to convince us that she’s “fine”
As she accepted “happiness isn’t a possession of mine”
She wants the sweet presence of company
And someone to dispel all the days she felt lonely
She walks around with her head facing down
With so many dreams in them she could drown
She seeks refuge in the arms of deception
Hoping it will solve her every complication
And yet here she stands feeling alone
As she has no one to call her own
Betrayed, hurt, isolated yet yearning
She awaits her fairytale ending

THE INNER BEAUTY by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

6/3/2007

BLUEBIRD by Chrissie Akesi Chinebuah

6/3/2007

Bluebirds are portrayed as such a pretty sight
With there radiant blue fur
Strutting around in pride
Blending in the clear blue sky
When flying high
Darting from tree branch to branch
Hoping on its two feet
Sparking jealousy for its beauty
And making rivals before friends
Yet the bluebird is just as bad
As the others
Pecking furiously at worms
Leaving them no mercy
Or time for their last prayers
It was a lively thing
That blue bird was
But it didn’t have a heart